A fever dream
I walk alone, stones unturned
A road of fog, a place now long gone
I feel you beside me
I turn in surprise
But all I see is the lamppost
And all I see are the eyes
A vision of sorts
A nightmare
A dream
Alone and so empty
I’m lost in between
We stumble for a while
Tripping in the fog
Of laughter and smiles
But they lie fallow in the dark
I reach for your hand
But it’s no longer there
I reach for your face
And I grasp at the air
I cling to my shadow
The last of its kind
And just like the others
It fades in the night
I reach the end of the way
Shivering cold
But I cannot get warm
Because I gave you my coat
Shaking in the night
A flame burning inside
A house, not my home
As a stranger in the fright
A void now between me
And a firelit night
A fog impenetrable
An endless climb
A place not traveled
A path I dare not go
A hallowing shadow
I walk it alone
Alone, and so empty
Alone in the fog
Alone Lord, can you find me
Alone where art thou God
Silence
I’m surrounded and cloaked
A spotlight
My doubts
I’m shivering cold
A twilight of fears
The water floods in
My Anger like blood
My hand are now empty
I cry to my God
My heart so heavy
It weighs in my chest
A hope so weighty
I’ve lost my breath
Shouting “bitter-sweet the sorrow
We fall but never mend
Always waiting for tomorrow
Darling will it ever end?!”
My cries forlorn and empty
My flaws in a line
I fall to the ground heavy
Brown now black empty eyes
Yes, the dawn it will come
But no not tonight
The storm always ends
But not this time
I awaken that morning
Cold sweat on my brow
I need your voice
I need you love
And I reach for the phone
But I stop in the cold
And the heaviness falls
Because you can’t pick up
Dawn hasn’t woken
The sun, it still rests
My head is still cloudy
I put down the phone
The days getting longer
A place I once knew
Doubts on one side and fears on the other
I know what I must do
I must face this alone